a Win is a Win

I hope to get this all out so I can maybe post on instagram(lol). I've been meaning to for a month now. Why am I so scared to admit accomplishment? I'm more willing to admit my failures than say I did something well. Maybe its because once I admit it- it's gone. Or I fear it will be taken away from me. It's almost like my accomplishment didn't happen unless its naturally acknowledged by another. Probably both.

It's scary.

Life is scary right now.

When it comes to this- this being...... I have finished my first year teaching yoga.... and I've done a lot with it- this is intimidating. To admit I only have a year of teaching under my belt and have the balls to launch an international yoga retreat? Will people not want to go on the retreat or take a class with me? I spent 5 years studying fine art and spent my whole childhood drawing before that. I have a degree in it rolled up somewhere. Never opened. Yoga? Two months living on an island and a laminated piece of paper. That laminated piece of paper opened more doors for me- even doors to use that rolled up art degree.

And that's just one aspect- the imposter syndrome I guess you would call it. To add to all that the road to this yoga career I want to be proud of was not easy. I went into A LOT OF DEBT to get here. I broke my own heart so many times trying to reach my goals. I moved back home. There's a lot of failure tied in with this success. I don't even want to call it that cause it's scary to me still. But I guess I should...

I've been teaching yoga for just over a year now. I have regular clients. I even fill up a class. I'm hosting a yoga retreat and that paid itself off in one month. Yup. I'm terrified to say I did that and have it all taken away.

"have it all taken away"

the simple accomplishment remains fact. it cannot be taken away even no matter what. as of today 10 people find what I have to offer valuable. success to me. scary to admit.

I really am so grateful. To be trusted with other's bodies... maybe even their minds. I don't take that trust lightly. I love what I do.

thank you for your trust

-jill